Upon Further Reflection

It is possible that it is time to bury John Capes…… I do not mean that in the traditional sense. I plan to be here for at least another 50 years. But I have to wonder a little at how my life has played out. Maybe John Capes has simply played out. Maybe, just maybe…it […]

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Why

I like to think that I still have as many years ahead as I have behind. But regardless of how long I have, one thing has been weighing on me and getting heavier as time continues to move forward is tying together one particular loose end. I want to contact my birth mother to say […]

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The search began with an ending

In many ways it began my mom (She adopted me but she will always be my mom.) dying at Duke and finding myself just sitting there in the ICU dumbfounded for about another 30 minutes. I didn’t want to leave because I knew that this was going to be the last time I would ever […]

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Mom

This was my mom Patricia Capes. She was the reason I got to be who I am. She wanted to have a child and couldn’t. So she spent the better part of two years going thru the adoption process with my dad to get “me” long before there “was” a me. She was tough. Didn’t […]

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It’s a long story

The older I got, the louder one thought kept coming to mind year after year on my birthday….somewhere out there on that particular day the woman that gave birth to me was thinking about me at the same time as I was thinking about her. And as it turned out, I was right…she was. So, in […]

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Famliy

It is only when you have the right prism to look through or just the right reflection staring back at you that you are able to truly appreciate that time has passed by. It isn’t necessarily a bad thing either y’know. But it definitely has a grounded feeling about it. It also only goes in […]

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Dad

This was my dad, Jimmy Capes…..he was a good man, a good husband, a good father. He died over half of my life ago but I still think of him as if he was still around. I find that there are still moments that I catch myself thinking that I should follow up with him […]

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